Monday, August 23, 2010
its been awhile. bz bz bz n more bz.
updates on my life? been 2 wks fasting. sof ar so gd. temptation is dere but hehe managed to not b tempted. boo is back but somehow it all feels kinda different. mebbe its da lack of communication. oh well.. apparently im not as busy as him.
been making new frens alot. all thanks to YEC. n also been finding myself talking to certain ppl more frequently. hmm.. people frm the past have also made a re-entry in my life. dunno whether its a gd thing or not. some people can juz b freaky. but over all else, im happy to have some ppl in my life right now. they kinda make doing things worthwhile and they certainly make da loneliness at a distance.
don feel like writing much. breakfast is coming.. hehe den i can b as naughty as i wanna. muahahaha...
6:44 PM; unforgotten.Y
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
feelings gone. yea. *smiles all over*
7:55 PM; unforgotten.Y
Monday, August 2, 2010
i have been really bz. sometimes i wonder how i can manage the things i do.. school. work. and volunteer work.
lots have happened of coz.. after such a long time interval duh..
im torn btwn 2. i like both. n i love 1. i don need to make a choice but its impossible to have both at once. what shld i do? wat can i do? im afraid of losing both. though da 2nd 1 has nth to b lost coz dere isnt anything in the 1st place. zzz... grr... i need to stop. i really do. but it juz feels wonderful. all of it. n i really miss my boo.. sometimes, i juz get so mad. he don even bother to send me offline msgs. it gets so lonely. very very lonely. i try to put it behind, to hide in the shadows, but when all is dark, where else can i go? where else can i hide? boo where are you when i need you most?
constant migraine's been bugging me everyday. is it coz im too stressed or because of other factors? i really dunno. finding myself keep saying the same thing for almost all qns. i keep saying "i dunno". don ask me why... schools been ok i guess. but there's just one thing. i cant help it. i like him. i hope this is just a phase. i pray for it to be so and nth more. its temporary. coz deres nth in it for me but only a broken heart. with each passing minute im away frm my boo.. i grow nearer to him.. hmm...
need to whack myself from this. geez.. im already so old still thinking abt fairytales.
2:42 PM; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, May 27, 2010
talk abt depressing dramas. the new korean drama tat i watched is exactly tat and more. zzzz... "Hong Gildong the hero". damn. makes me have an epiphany. zzz.... y must ppl betray one another? especially close frens. betrayal.. the ultimate sin. cant help but cry wen i watched the almost ending... da king moved in to kill da rebels but tat is not da betrayal. it is in actual fact the result of the rebel's betrayal... they didn wanna stop fighting even though the king was gd. too big a difference in ideology of the perfect world. damn. n stupid woman chose rebel over da uber gd looking king. zzz... i;d go for him anytime.. lols..
*Ajah!!! JGS (jang geun suk)*
1:27 PM; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, May 20, 2010
5 weeks into school term and class politics are super active. this person don like that that person don like another person. damn. im too old for this shit man.. juz don understand why they juz cant ignore whatever or what not. zzz... he's going away in 2 wks time. damnation. gonna miss him like crazy.
1:14 PM; unforgotten.Y
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
wow... its really been a long long time since i blogged. don think im gonna b doing it often though. bz schedule.
update on my life ever since my last post.. which i don even noe wen.. omgosh...
(yes i need to number them off =p)
1. 2day marks 6th mnth of me n gene.
2. new sch (NYP) - dip in biomedical engineering
*abit hard to believe lei... science student pfft..
3.my cat passed away.. bernard... still cant sleep coz everytime i close my eyes can still see him on the hospital bed.. T_T
4.life's a bitch... mom getting worst. i always need to repeat in my head "wat i want don matter" dad's a fucker.. no surprise dere
5.total house make over.. got my dad's 46" tv..
6.cant watch korean
7.cant read novels
8.cant play game
9.cant breathe
10.cant die
see da list of the "can't"s? life's only sanctuary... my brain where i can drift off to a different place..
2:03 PM; unforgotten.Y
Thursday, November 19, 2009
surrealism. lols. sometimes i ned to pinch myself to make ure its not juz a dream.
life at home is kinda sucky. boring shit. stupid aunt moved out already. n juz wen i think things cant get any complicated, u'd b surprised at wat she can cook up to disturb peace.
i sooooooooooooooooooooooo need a massage. actualy, i find myself needing alot of things nowadays. sigh.
cold weather. start work next wk. not exactly work. its training but atleast im getting paid. sigh.
5:52 PM; unforgotten.Y